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Understanding Emotion

It's an unusual concept to come to terms with, that you could ever enjoy yourself or feel happy in prison, but here we are. Goals and aspirations realised, and all faults and wrongdoings on the table. You notice how you didn't treat your close friends and family how they should've been treated – that can be a thing that affects you most of all. You will have times when it devastates you, but I say use it as motivation to do better and be better. You've always got to remember that emotions are temporary; you will never feel the same all the time, so be prepared for sadness, upset, boredom and loneliness. But don't let that cloud you from enjoying what's good. Emotions can be a confusing thing; sometimes you can control them, and sometimes you can't. That can translate into life itself as well – you never know what is going to happen, but you can choose the little things and hope to have some control. Things go wrong all the time. There's no point in dragg...
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Groundhog Day

Being in prison is like Groundhog Day. You find yourself waking up in the same place every day. So why not surprise yourself and learn something new to improve yourself along the way. Most people will come to prison and see themselves as trapped, and they'll just do what it takes to get by, which is one of the main issues with the system (the groundhog day theory). There are, however, so many paths it can lead you down. Some people can be dragged into worse crim than they were before. People can linger, bide their time and not change at all. Or you can see it how it is, and how I see it. Improve your body, go to the gym and eat better; get your body the way you want it to be and then look after it. You can improve your mind and gain knowledge; you can always learn something new, so go and do it and learn something new about yourself in the process. You can learn new jobs in here, gain new skills, do an Open University course, go to the library and teach yourself history or anything...
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Here I Am

Here I am lost, Lost in a world I don't fit in, In a situation I can't understand. I know what I've done, I know why I'm here, I know what I need to do. I want to start again.  Give me a chance, I'm ready to start over. I don't know what I've become,  Who am I? What was I thinking? I've learned from my mistakes, I've paid for them, I'm ready to start again.
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Unknown, The Truth

What an unusual world we live in. You can find yourself in situations you never thought you'd have to experience, with people you never expected to meet. During that time, it may seem completely fine. It may be the happiest time of your life. But then it ends, things get spun, and you look back and all you can remember are the good times and you don't know what went wrong. And you start to question everything. Was it all one-sided? You begin to question yourself, your choices and the company you've been keeping. All this may sound very negative; however, once you have gained distance, separated yourself from the equation, things begin to look a little clearer. You see the good, the future, the reset, all the things you could do if you want to. A new beginning, a fresh start. The truth: you are good if you allow yourself to be. You just have to let go of misfortune, bad judgement. Don't punish yourself – karma will do that. Your job is to let yourself recover, but you ne...
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My Mistakes

I've made mistakes my whole life; everyone does. But none of mine compare to the mistake I've made over the past couple of months. Now, after being here only two months, all I want to do when I get out is make and dedicate my life to being the best person I can possibly be and become a functioning member of society. I want to go places, learn things about the world and educate myself further. When I'm free and I have served my time, I need to prove the change to myself and my family. I've been letting myself down and wasting my potential my whole life. I could be so much more, yet here we are. Nevertheless, I will serve my time, whatever that may end up being, and go about the rest of my life showing that I'm not that person; it was a simple mistake that anyone could make in this cruel world, and I will forever go about proving myself to the people I love and hold most dear.
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